Excerpt: Rudy

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January 1969

(Hollywood)

Stoney pulls himself together and announces he’s hitchhiking to New York City to sell 500 tabs of acid–minus the 13 he dropped on New Year’s Eve.

I beg him not to go–hitching cross country is too dangerous. Cops, rednecks, thieves, killers, all just waiting to arrest, beat up, roll, or even kill someone careless like Stoney.

Devil-may-care Stoney. I’ve never met anyone who was so slapdash with dope.

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Excerpt: Cops

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January 1969

(Hollywood)

I hear from Levi that Stoney might not come back, after all, at least any time soon.

Evidently, New York, cop wise, is super cool right now. L.A.’s too hot.

Levi’s right. When I get home from Cecil’s, two cops wait outside the pad.

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Excerpt: Downers

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January 1969

(Hollywood)

Just my luck, having the cops show up like they did, looking for Stoney.

What has he done, anyway? Must be bad.

I stumble downstairs to Rudy’s pad and pound on the door.

Rudy, his usual sloppy self, opens the door. Several girls sit around smoking dope, munching chips and pretzels.

Words won’t come. Instead, I bawl.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness 

Excerpt--January 15, 1969: "Sioux City Blues"

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Harley Semple
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(Hollywood)

Dee Dee’s bugging me in the worst way--says I have three choices: go to my mom’s, Auntie’s (no way), or go back to Sioux City. He’s really acting scary, and Auntie’s turning up the heat.

I’ll pass on Auntie’s and Iowa, thank you.

I’m going stir crazy in this joint. I want to go out for a walk, but Auntie says no.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness 

Memoir Madness: driven to involuntary commitment (Summary)

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Summary moved to MemoirMadness.com

Excerpt--January 16, 1969: "...While I Kiss the Sky"

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(United Airlines, Flight #266, on approach to Denver, Colorado)


Purple haze all in my brain

Lately things just don’t seem the same

Actin’ funny, but I don’t know why

‘Scuse me while I kiss the sky

–Jimi Hendrix, "Purple Haze"

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I hate flying, especially when I’m going somewhere I don’t want to be. Last summer, it wasn’t so bad flying to California–somehow, the prospect of crashing to earth and becoming part of a smoldering heap doesn’t seem so likely when you’re going somewhere fun.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--January 17, 1969: There Must be Some Way Outta Here

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Jennifer's home (West Third Street, Sioux City, Iowa) 1964-1968
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(Sioux City)
What a drag--it’s not only literally cold here, but the icy chill coming from Mo is frightening; I definitely want to blow this joint as soon as possible.

Yesterday, when we stepped off the plane, I thought she was going to hit me.

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Excerpt--January 1969: What to Do With My Life?

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The Hewlett-Packard 9100A
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(Sioux City)

Mo’s been bugging me about finding a job.

Is she kidding? I’m not hanging around here long enough to find a regular job. I’ll have to work some day, but the time isn’t right yet.

Maybe I’ll hitch to East Berlin, Pennsylvania, and find a job there.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--February 1969: My Country 'Tis of Thee, Sweet Land of Tyranny

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Jeff Brown
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(Sioux City)

Finally! I heard from Jeff; he says he’s been writing me all along. I happened to be home alone when the mail came, and, voila! a large envelope covered with psychedelic drawings, a peace sign, flowers, and a slogan: “My Country Tis of Thee, Sweet Land of Tyranny, in Subtle Forms.” Inside, he let me know that he had written me a very important letter on the 20th. Says he’s turning into a nervous wreck waiting for my answer.

What answer?

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--February 18, 1969: "Let's See What the Police Have to Say"

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Downtown Sioux City
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(Sioux City)
Today, a total disaster. All because I decided it was time to get the fuck out of Sioux City now--nothing here for me anymore.

I got into a huge fight with Mo this morning about some dirty dishes I left in the sink last night.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--The Institution: The First Five Days (February 19-23, 1969)

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Cherokee Mental Health Institute, where the author was incarcerated
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(Cherokee, Iowa)

On admission, the patient was alert, anxious, depressed and appeared immature with a poor self image. On the ward, she was noted to be quiet and cooperative in the ward routine. She was slightly depressed but showed no sign of anxiety at the time of the interview. She expressed extreme hostility toward her guardians who are her grandparents. She admits to experimentation of drugs. Consciousness was clear; she was well-oriented, and there was no disturbance in memory. She showed fairly good ability to counting and arithmetical calculations. Abstraction ability was good. Her insight and judgment are not impaired. Her conflict, as noted in the diagnostic staff note, appeared to be external rather than intrapsychic.

–Dr. Mariano A. Favis, Jr., “Initial Summary: Mental Examination”

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--Other Patients in the Institution: Joyce

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(Cherokee, Iowa)

February-April 1969
If Penny is a lost kid dumped into the institution and Carrie a bonafide wacko, then Joyce* is just plain scary.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

The Other Patients in the Institution: Anna on the Lam

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February - April 1969
What a wild weekend. Anna, a chick who was admitted shortly after me, and her boyfriend Benito, took off from the hospital on Saturday. I knew that they were planning an escape, but I didn’t say anything to the staff. I figure it was their bag--they would have to suffer the consequences, whatever that might be.

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Excerpt--After Release From the Institution: Denise's Tips

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April 1969

(Sioux City, Iowa)

(Note: upon my conditional release from Cherokee, I was required to find a job--or return to the institution. I accepted a job at Denise's Diner, a greasy spoon on West 7th Street.)

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--Leaving Sioux City: Dee Dee

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Harley Semple, Jennifer's grandfather
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Monday, May 5

I wake up at 6:00 a.m., ready by 7:00. I splurge and take a taxi to the bus station, there by 7:30--this is one bus I don’t want to miss.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

San Francisco Municipal Railway Bus Transfer, 1968-1969

San Francisco Municipal Railway Bus Transfer, 1968-1969
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I can't believe that I saved this old bus transfer from San Francisco and still have it, but here it is, photo of front and back.

Outtake Moved to Madness Memoir

Outtake: Jane and the York YWCA

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Thursday, May 8, 1969

(York, Pennsylvania)

After spending a chilly night in Jeff’s old Valiant, I check into the YWCA.

My roommate is kind of cool, though she guzzles a lot of beer. She looks a bit like Mom--hell, she reminds me of Mom, right down to the red hair...

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Excerpt--New Year's Eve, 1968: "Fire"

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(Hollywood, California)
The window opens to the freeway. As the sun slips behind a hill, I lean forward and breathe in. The air, still unseasonably warm, foreshadows a chill, the specter of the diminishing year only hours away.

2001 Ivar Street, our space odyssey.

Excerpt moved to Memoir Madness

Outtake: The Politics of Memoir

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Jubilant Jennifer and Jeff together, Spring 1970
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Article moved to Why I Write.

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Outtake: United Airlines Flight #266

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Flight Transcript

1819:04
LOS ANGELES DEPARTURE CONTROL: United 266, go ahead.

First Officer: Ah, we've had a fire warning on Number One engine we shut down. We'd like to come back.

1819:10
LOS ANGELES DEPARTURE CONTROL: United 266, roger. What is your present altitude?

1819:13.5
(COCKPIT VOICE RECORDER OPERATION STOPPED)

0000.00
(COCKPIT VOICE RECORDER RESUMED OPERATION AT AN INDETERMINATE LATER TIME)

0000.02
SECOND OFFICER: We're gonna get screwed up. I don't know [what's going on]

0000.06
FIRST OFFICER: Keep it going up, Arnie. You're a thousand feet...pull it up...

(SOUND OF IMPACT)

Breaking News:

18 January 1969; United Airlines 727, Flight #266; Los Angeles, CA: The aircraft crashed into Santa Monica Bay shortly after a night takeoff in poor weather. The crew reported an engine one fire warning, shut down the engine, and initiated an air turn back before crashing into the water at high speed and an unusual attitude. Electrical failure was suspected. All six crew members and 32 passengers were killed.

This is an important fact; two days earlier, on January 16, my grandfather and I had flown this very flight.

I had begged my grandfather for two extra days in Hollywood, to tie up some loose ends.

"No," he said. "You've had enough time."

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I Believe in Destiny



Enigma's "Return to Innocence" (1984)

ownhearts
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More details about the crash of United Flight 266
United Airlines Flight 266 was a scheduled flight from Los Angeles International Airport, Los Angeles, California, to General Mitchell International Airport, Milwaukee, Wisconsin, via Stapleton International Airport, Denver, Colorado, with 38 on board. On January 18, 1969, at approximately 18:21 PST it crashed into Santa Monica Bay, Pacific Ocean, approximately 11.5 miles west of Los Angeles International Airport four minutes after takeoff.

Two minutes into its flight, the pilots reported a fire warning in the No. 1 engine and shut it down. The aircraft had departed LAX with one of its three generators inoperable, and shutting down the suspect engine took a second generator offline. The remaining generator became overloaded and shut down, resulting in the loss of all electrical power.

The pilots began flying in total darkness with less than 3 miles visibility due to fog and rain, with no lights or instruments, and consequently lost complete control of the aircraft due to disorientation and crashed killing all 38.

At the time, a battery powered back-up source for instruments was not required on commercial aircraft. The accident prompted the Federal Aviation Administration to require all transport category aircraft to have new backup instrumentation installed, and powered by a source independent of the generators.

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